Stuck in the mud.

Well Friends. I am a slacker. We haven't walked lately because of the weather and my new business is really kicking off! I honestly stay busy, other than my full time job. I am still cutting down portions and watching my in-take. I can tell a difference as well in my clothing. Here lately I havent felt swollen and just icky! :) Slow results are better for me anyway, the weight is more likely to stay off if it is done slowly. I need the motivation and the kicks in the rear ! I am so happy though, that I have not fallen off the track , just the walking track. lol. I plan of picking back up very, very soon. I have found a new love for mushrooms....I love them on anything.....as long as they are cooked. I have also added lettuce to my sandwiches. I know it doesn't seem like much but it is a huge accomplishment for me :) I pray that Tim celebrates Valentine's Day with "no sugar" added treats ....hummmm. I am patiently waiting for the vanishing of the "double chin", I am so excited...it looks like it has shrunk a little , not a substantial amount but enough to make me proud! :) I will be back tomorrow...Happy Valentines day everybody!

Cowboy boots and painted on jeans.

Body Image. Mine is gross. My bff has the cutest physique! I'm kind of jealous in a way, because she looks good in everything..... cowboy boots are her favorite. She had a baby in 2007 and even pregnant, she was delightful! Her body went right back to the way it was before. She is beautiful inside and out and her hair is always perfect! I want to know what it is like to wear tight jeans.....not in a filthy, trashy way but in an attractive ( to my husband) modest kind of way. I've always seen myself , for years, in a cute white button-up shirt with faded, tight jeans, and cowboy boots WEIGHING about 150. Very, very cute jewelry and hair-cut,too! You know Dancing(line dancing) is one of my favorite past times, that's why I say boots. Though, I can still drop it like it's hot, but it's difficult and quite painful to pick it back up! I know my vision sounds silly, but I want to see myself that way! I am so ready to be attractive and gorgeous! Not for other people ,but for myself. I have so many beautiful friends, I want to fit in!! :) I am doing well so far....I've got to admit, I cheated a little bit last night- I had noodles at the Chinese place :( NOT A LOT, I promise!! Still on the water to the point that it repulses me to look at it. I just keep thinking, it will all be worth it one day!! This whole process is teaching me patience.......I bit off all my fingernails.

Shake your tail feathers.

Hey people. I haven't been on the lifestyle change long , But I am so proud to announce that I am wearing a pair of khakis today that I couldn't even button weeks ago! Praise God! :) Now, that makes me happy! I am so glad I haven't given up already....it's a big thanks to all of my supporters! We didn't walk last night, but before you start giving me the evil eye ,let me explain. It was raining and COLD! I love the cold weather ,but it was just to cold ,and I am so susceptible to sicknesses so I didn't want to risk it. Looks like we may be facing brutial Mr. Winter a few more times before SPRING so, my solution....Wii Dance!! That's right , when the weather doesn't permit, I will be Shaking my tail feather in my living room!! That's going to burn calaries, Back to my dropping it like it's hot days! Also, I found a new snack that I love, love, love-Fiber One-Chocolate Mocha-it has %35 daily value of fiber! Still on the water! FYI: Diet Dr. Pepper taste just like regular Dr. Pepper! :) That's all for today! Love you ALL!

I'm just mean.

Ok followers, Today I feel really, really bad. I was not very nice to my sweet husband yesterday. We went to walk on the track again! I was so ready , I devoted most of my energy to the first lap, Tim was saying, "Slow down Danielle, you are going to get to tired and you will be to worn out to finish." I ignored him, after all, I am getting pretty good at this walking thing and I am ready to roll. As a matter of fact, I could probably jog the last lap! Why does he always have to be RIGHT?? I know why, he has done his before and he knows what he is talking about! Towards the end of the first lap and I'm winded again and my legs are very shaky. I still continued on, beginning of the third lap , I am ready to quit. Tim said," I told you to walk at a slow pace and keep it up." Here is where it got .......mean...?? I said, " Shut up, Tim! Why do you have to keep talking? I am trying to concentrate and you are getting on my nerves!!" We continued on and he pushed me the whole way....but he is so sweet about it. The last lap we reversed therefore, we were walking upward. Boy, that was hard! My legs were burning, I was sweating, I felt that little ball in my throat that I get before I cry.....Tim grabbed my hand without saying anything and I shunned him. He's just trying to help, I know, but this is the hardest thing I believe I've ever done. It wasn't this hard for me when I was playing softball or tap dancing. I let myself get this way and I'm disguested! It's going to be difficult, it's going to be hard, it's going to be exhausting, but the way I see it, I have someone that WANTS to help and be there and LOVE me through it all. I should be Thankful and I am , I just get very ill at times when things are out of my control or they control me! So , finishing the last of our last lap I really want to stop and fall out!! I start to remember why I am doing this and I think of everyone who has left sweet comments, sent encouraging text, and care enough to continue reading my blog and rooting for me. I just want to be a better, happier, healthy person. I can do so much more for myself, my family, and the Lord if I were happy with me. I feel like a failure at times but I promised not to give up this time. Even in my weakest moments.....I get a little bit stronger.