You call it tomato....I call it gross.

Well, after the weekend, I'm back. The recent struggle is vegetables. I need to eat a salad and believe it or not I want too, I really do. Tim is so good at eating healthy things. I absolutely hate TOMATOES! The sight of them makes me gag uncontrollably. I love ketchup!! I am the kind of person that, I put ketchup on my ketchup! Another thing I HATE , MAYONNAISE! That's probably good though, it's bad for you. Okay, I am going to list the other items that absolutely repulse me on every level....it doesn't matter how you cook them!
1. Balogna- I will throw up!
2. Hot-Dogs- Sick!
3. Avacado
4. Onion
5. Green Peppers
6. Sour Cream
7. Any meat that is pacakged!
8. Fast food meat- gag me out!
The reason I am sharing this is because I am going to pick the healthy things from this list and try to fit them into ONE of my meals this week. I am going to go for 3, 4, 5, the rest is bad for you anyway! I promise to try tomatoes, also. A lifestyle change has to be something that is going to continue, therefore, I am going broaden my horizen in food choices. Last night for dinner I had : 3 egg whites scrambled, 2 pieces of wheat toast (no butter) and 1 piece of sausage. I was proud of myself. I made myself a parfait for dessert : half of a banana , 1 cup of strawberry yogurt (yoplait) and grapes on top. I put it in the freezer for about 30 minutes. It was delicious!!! If any of you guys have any suggestions or comments , please let me know! I am very open-minded on recipes and opinions. Well, be careful with the opinions , depending on what day it is, I could possibly get ghetto if you offend me! (jk)
I want to also Thank everyone who has taken time to read my blog. I received so many uplifting comments! It means so much to me that all of my friends, even from the past, have written me encouraging comments and text. Doing this blog is putting my life and struggles out there to one day help someone , but to also push myself harder, because I know everyone is watching and keeping up!
So, I've been thinking about where I am going to shop when I drop those dress sizes!! Number one on my list :
1. New York and Company- I want those cute little dresses that you can wear with leggings. I may even buy leggings! ( I have some already, but I refuse to wear them, OMG! Did I really just post this?)
2. American Eagle- I love, love, love their jeans! I can't wait to wear jeans that have those cute little tears and worn look :) If you see that my jeans have tears now, they were NOT made that way, I'm sure I busted the seam or I made them myself because they don't come in my size. It's exciting to me ....right now my jeans have elastic in the waist- ba..ha..ha!
3. Hollister- I love their t-shirts and long sleeve, fitted shirts ( Right now, all my shirts are fitted, but not in a good way :( )
4. Aeropostale- They have the cutest pajama pants! ( I wear , what Tim says , is a moo-moo - hahaha)
5. Victoria's Secret- Now, this list could get long! I love there bra's ( current bra- Lane Bryant) I don't want to have to buy extenders anymore. Next, the cute little underwear! They are so bright and cute! No More Granny Pannies for me America!!!!
6. Motherhood Maternity( maybe a result of number 5, haha)- I hope to shop here only when I have a healthy body , after all, this is one of the main reasons. I want a shirt that says "bun in the oven", "hot moma", or one that says, " baby makes the belly go round' ".
Keep the comments and motivation coming...it brings on the perseverance!! Be patient with me on the blogging, I am getting use to it and I will soon learn to make it pretty!
James 1:2-3 ="Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance".

Cravings!

Today is Friday .... Oh how I want a cheeseburger from Woodbridge!! But , I didnt! I have been craving terrible things for the last few days. It's my body's way of getting angrey with me because I am training my brain to fight these cravings. My husband is the best cook I have ever met.  I'm not just saying that because he is my husband, it is honestly the truth. He creates things, they are phenominal! Last night we had salmon with a raspberry and pecan sauce and fresh green beans. It was really, really good. I enjoyed it. We had just one serving but it was enough. I wasn't miserably full. I had a good feeling after we were done with dinner. I had energy!! After our walk I had a yogurt ( I put it in the freezer, it was like ice cream) Today wasn't bad. It's still not easy but I think everyday how worth it, it will be!! I have never been so determined in my life. I need motivation, kind words, & encouragement. I thank everybody who has loved me for me and never seen size. I really appreciate it. I want to be an example and encouragement to others and I dont want this to be a set back for life, a family, and my health. Besides....Life just wouldn't be the same without "Dan",right? Lol. Candace Jerkins was correct when she said it's about accountability! I am going out with the girls tonight and I'm sure I will laugh away some calories. I don't want to be perfect just Christ like. He died for me, I am going to live for him. I won't give up this time.......I won't!!
(Deuteronomy 25:15 But thou shalt have a perfect and just weight, a perfect and just measure shalt have: that thy days may be lengthened in the land which the Lord they God giveth thee.)

The Track!

So, here is the first check-in . Yesterday Tim and I went to the hospital track to walk. It was my idea. I was ready!! The first lap was nothing, I was telling Tim how "slow" he was walking. Well, lap 2, I start to get a little winded especially walking up the slope. Guess what, Tim is doing well....he is just walking along talking, smiling, talking about the future. Okay Mister! I need you to stop asking me questions! I am winded , not use to walking, and I DO NOT want to talk! Lap 3, my legs are shaking, I'm still winded, I think I may fall walking down this hill......Tim is still talking !! Towards the end of this lap he says , " Babe you've got this, keep up a steady pace we are almost there." I am thinking , SHUT-UP! I have asthma , a buldging disk, morbidly obese, and you want me to keep up a steady pace??? Lap 4, I am about to faint, I no-longer have control of my legs, I'm shaking, can't hardly catch a breath, and I may even cry......Tim is still talking!! We have maybe 50 ft. of hill left in this last lap and I am ready to give up!! I can't do this! I say out loud, " I can't do this, I'm hurting!" Tim grabs my hand and says,"Babe, I am going to do it with you , yes you can, look down and you will be there before you know it." Well, I did just that and when I looked up I was done! Yay! We finished, together! It was just one simple mile, but it was a mile that I didn't think I would ever make it through, but I did!! Ready to do it again!

Modivation is the key!

Hey friends! That's right, I have created a blog so I can keep all my friends close and involved in my "lifestyle change". It is also for encouragement! Tim and I have decided to change our life! We are doing this together. We want to become healthy and physically fit. We are doing this for ourselves but we are also doing so that we may be able to start a family. Thats where I got my title, For Olivia and Keagan. Those are the names for the children we hope to have in the future , and that I can carry with a new 100% healthy, happy body. We have both struggled for years with our weight, but to us, we are both perfect. I guess that's where most people come up with the saying, love is blind. I wouldn't change a thing about Tim. When I see him , I see the Love of my life. In all reality , I want him here with me as long as he can be. He see's it the same way. Tim is my inspiration and motivation in this process. He is so strong-willed and READY! He pushes me and encourages me when I don't think I can do it anymore, and that's with every situation. He has lost weight several times in the past .....I've seen what he can do! I believe in him and the most amazing thing is, he believes in me! I was lying in bed several nights ago and it just hit me!! It's time! It's time to start treating my body as a temple. The Lord created us to do his work and to glorify him.(1 Corinthians 6:15) The way I feel some days due to all this excess , I dont even want to get out of bed. I am 25 years old!! That is terribly rediculous! I should be living my life to the max, enjoying everyday.....and I'm not. I find myself being lazy. I became to comfortable with who I am because I found someone and discovered those who truly loved me. I should be comfortable with who I am but 150lbs lighter. I have never been more ready to transform ME! I thank the Lord for my sweet husband who is so supportive and stands by me in everything I do. I am so honored and greatful to have him by my side.